Sunday, February 1, 2009

Love On the Outside--BBMak

Setting: sitting on my bed
song: Somewhere Only We Know, Keane
[I really suggest you listen to it right now]

1. I am doing this because I am too proud to post this note on Facebook.
2. When I am at school I refer to Chicago as 'home'. But when I am in Chicago, I refer to school as 'home'.
3. I didn't really understand unconditional love until Grace was born.
4. Just like the Flaming Lips say, happiness makes me cry.
5. I love sneezing. 
6. I will pretty much be friends with anyone who wants to be my friend. 
7. It is unattractive when guys swear too much. Even more unattractive when girls swear a lot. 
8. The smell of a banana is starting to bother me less.... but I still don't like it.
9. As much as I love her, a big fear of mine is that I will end up like my mother. 
10. I do not get mad at people often because I feel like everyone makes mistakes and there was a reason why they made a mistake. If it directly affects me, then I trust that they did not do it to purposely hurt me. 
11. I don't like when a lot of attention from people I don't know is on me. I get really nervous and turn red and sweat. Therefore, it makes me nervous when other people [even people I don't know] have a lot of attention on them.
12. I used to wonder if my life was like "The Truman Show" and everyone was a hired actor.
13. I appreciate talent. It sounds so dumb, but little things like a great rally in volleyball, an amazing dance move, a really well sung note, beautiful lyrics, or a perfectly taken picture will give me the chills or make my eyes water.
14. I fall for guys just as easily as the next person, maybe fall harder, but I don't like talking about it to other people. 
15. I'm probably the best Facebooker around, this title was designated by Kevin Flannery.
16. When I meet a new group of people I will maybe be the shyest person ever. But if I meet the same group of people with two of my best friends then I feel completely comfortable. This comes from the shyness I never fully shed from my childhood.
17. Out of all my friends- from Marquette, Ignatius, the neighborhood, etc- no two are a like. And I am not like any of them. It amazes me that friendliness and compassion is enough for the foundation of a great friendship. 
18. I love traveling by myself when I leave Milwaukee. I think the feeling of independence gives me a sense of strength. When I am at home I am never allowed to do anything by myself. Walking, busing, and training by myself with just my iPod gives me time to do anything. Usually this time is occupied by bopping my head and walking in rhythm to the music I am listening to. I am allowed to act however I want because, chances are, I will never see the people who I am crossing paths with. 
19. I don't judge people because everyone is messed up and everyone has a different response to their messed up lives.
20. I'm awful at doodling, so I write song lyrics when I am bored in class.
21. I really do enjoy wearing make up now. I wish I was better at putting it on. I really hate taking it off.
22. Confidence will change anyone's outlook on life. And don't get confidence confused with arrogance.
23. I like giving advice, but I only like people very close to me give me advice.
24. I don't like following trends. A favorite quote of mine that I found recently is from Carrot by Panda Bear 'get your head out from those mags and websites who try to shape your style. take a risk just for yourself and wade into the deep end of the ocean'. 
25. Without being over-emotional, I wish I could be more open with my feelings. 

Okay, considering there are four people at most reading this [and those people already know me well] I tried thinking of things that even you didn't know. I hope I succeeded. 

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